I have been thinking why is it last year around this time was I able to be successful at working, side projects, school, and losing weight. Also why is it so hard for me to do that now.

Well in my thoughts I have come to the conclusion that it has to do with structure. Last year everything was highly strucutred and I was pretty much able to bank on exactly what was going to happen there were no curve balls. For example, I would get up everyday monday through friday and had to be at Tulsa Technology Center by 8:00. Then I would go to class after TTC to Tulsa Community College. From there I would go to work at the hostpital. Everyday the same thing nothing different. Nothing out of the ordianry. Even once I was done with TCC i still have TTC and work. Everything was predictable same schedule same routine everyday so it was easy to work with it.

Well, now my life is so crazy and out wack that I can’t find any symmatry in life to stick to. The only thing constant is my class schedule, but after that I have no structure due to large amounts of time that can be shifted based on what I need to get done. This leads to the problem of being able to push things here and there which can really hurt any goals that require high amount of structure.

So in conlcustion if I ever want to get anything done I really need to sit down plan out every day of what I need to do and when for how long. Then I need to follow it and build up a routine that way I can be successful again. They say if you want something done ask a busy person. Well I need to become that person so I can get things done better.